So you want to be a writer or healer or musician, artist of some kind or creative, conscious entrepreneur? Hey, me too! Welcome, you’ve come to the right place. My goal is to ultimately find peace and acceptance with choosing an unconventional path.
You can read my first post on On Choosing an Unconventional Path and Desires that Go Against the Grain that defines the sort of world-thought that I think a lot of us grow up with. I closed that post with some guidance I received that felt more true.
Since I graduated college and my adult work life began over 7 years ago, I have been dealing with extreme unhappiness in my work-life. I have never worked anywhere I felt like I fit in, could be myself, where I was surrounded with people like myself, or where my work was meaningful, self-directed. I have not yet had the privilege to do work that is truly in service of something/someone that felt worthy of devoting the majority of my waking hours to or tapped into my skills, talents, strengths (or otherwise just didn’t feel like hell). Ever felt this way before? Based on the number of life coaches out there, I am guessing being stuck in an ill-fitting, meaningless job is a fairly common, if not always openly discussed phenomenon.
Of course, each job has taught me different things and likely not the things that you would think you put on a resume, but more like the importance of being humble, keeping your integrity in less than ideal circumstances, hearing from inner guidance when it is time to move on and listening to that more quickly. But I persist in believing that work exists that I can do that would not only make me happier, but also provide a true service to those who need it. The only reason why I persist in this belief is because it doesn’t go away – either the belief or the nagging notion that I am not doing what I should be doing.
I realize I am talking about a feeling, an inkling, an inner knowing and nothing concrete I can point to, but the discontent and knowing is as real to me as my hand, or I would have stayed at one of my first jobs from 5-7 years ago, and it would have been easier than dealing with the constant discomfort of feeling different, of feeling a need to do something else, something more, and never knowing WHAT.
So when I am feeling hopeful, I look to people who seem to have already done it. People who already are healers, artists, writers – and not generally famous people, but small people. Famous people are too easy to admire from afar and never believe I can be like them. I have a few people who I imagine I might want to be like, and I follow their work online. I know a few real life people, too, but not enough of the kind of work I think I may want to do. It is still ill-defined, and I am still working on it, but I am continuing to hone into it.
The people I admire online are a website designer and freelancer Paul Jarvis, copywriter and e-course teacher Ash Ambirge, copywriter and writer and speaker and mental health activist Esme Wang, small business academy for entrepreneurs owner Carrie Klassen, career coach Laura Simms, and marketing guru and life coach and founder of B-School Marie Forleo. The people I admire in real life are my Healing Touch Practitioner and a family friend who started their own draft-house recently in a small Texas town.
I suppose they all hold keys to what I might do next. Who do you admire? And do you think that they hold clues to who you might become?
I am still looking for the license figuratively and quite literally to do something different. I keep imagining there will be a degree to give me permission to do something else, start my own business. But I know the faster (and perhaps only) route to where I need to be is in acceptance and allowing myself to feel and affirm my unconventional desires.
So this post is a start. I am putting my thoughts and ideas out into the world in written form. That is something for me. What would be “something” for you?
Lastly, a bit more food for thought and salve for your soul if you feel like you are in the same boat I am:
“Learn to love and accept yourself for who you are right now. Love all the things you have already created. You do not need to be perfect before you do your life’s work; accomplishing your life’s work will help you grow and evolve. As you love and accept who you are right now, you make it possible to move in new directions.
“You have been doing the best you know how. Start appreciating yourself for who you are rather than thinking about who you wish you were. This will help you move forward more easily. Is there anything you have been criticizing yourself for lately? If so, for one day, every time you think of this thing see if you can thank yourself for all of the good things you are doing instead.”
Affirmation (and yes I’ve started using these) “I love and accept myself for who I am right now.”
This is from a book I’m reading, Creating Money.